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“You’re dissatisfied by her being too cute?”
“I am… well, guess it’s more insecure than unsatisfied.”

That didn’t make sense. Wasn’t your girlfriend being cute a good thing?

From what Hunkydorky – our handsome otaku dork – told me, Rir didn’t compare unfavorably when she stood next to us. And when I asked him “so, would the other girls look bad if they stood next to Mika and me?” he replied “why yes, they very much would” without hesitation.

“What are you insecure about?”
“Well… I feel like I can no longer stop myself if we keep goin’ like this.”
“Oh…”

Shuu was an adolescent boy. I mean, looking at him, you couldn’t see him as anything else. In addition to that, he was already in a relationship with Rir, where they had sex, so having insecurities wasn’t strange.

“How often do you do it currently?”
“Once per week in Anazumu. On this side… we’ve only kissed and napped side by side. That’s ’bout it.”
“So, when you say you’re scared you’ll lose yourself, what kind of frequency are you talking about?”
“Daily… or once every two days.”
“…”

Not good, Mika and I do it once every two days.
It was usually her who initiated, but there were also times when I asked her. With that combined, we ended up doing it every other day.

“Shuu, that’s awfully hard to say, but…”
“What now?”
“Mika and I have sex every other day.”
“You… you serious?”
“I am.”

His eyes popped open in shock. It was unavoidable.

“Uhm… are you guys alright?”
“We use proper preparations, so yes, we’re doing fine. Do you think that’s bad?”
“N-Nah…”

Shuu ate one of the spread-out rice crackers. But I could see the trembling in his face.

“Gotcha… so, could it be you also did it on this side…?”
“Yep. Mika and I have graduated from being children.”
“N-No way…”

I still remembered that day. Mika’s grown-up body… it was a world of difference compared to Anazumu.

“What do I do…?”
“How does Rir think about it? Is she fine with once per week?”
“Nah, she asks me to do it once every two days.”
“Don’t tell me you turn her down?”
“…Guess I messed up, after all.”

He seemed uncharacteristically weak. Though it explained why he felt so insecure.

“Why do you refuse? If it’s because you’re worried you won’t be able to stop yourself, you should explain that to her.”
“N-Nah… that ain’t all. Somehow… I don’t want to.”
“Is it because of her?”
“That ain’t it! I love Rir!!”

Untypically for him, he kept getting louder and louder. Just how big was her influence on him? In any case, I could guess what he was thinking.

“Shh… Rir is in the neighboring building…”
“Ah… you think she heard me?”
“Even if she did, I don’t think she’d be bothered by you saying you love her. Calm down.”
“I-I guess.”

The somewhat agitated ball of muscles sat back down.

“So, you love her. What exactly makes you not want to do it?”
“… I said it before, it feels like I’m losin’ myself… that’s what I don’t like.”
“You think you won’t be able to stop yourself, huh? She’s exactly your type, isn’t she?”
“Yup.”

He replied easily, not even trying to deny it. He probably saw no reason to hide it, since we all knew what kind of person Rir was.

“Maybe ’cause she knows that too, Rir-”
“Eh?”

He whispered into my ear. What he told me was a bit shocking.

“Seriously?”
“Yep.”
“…But Mika did that for me too, you know?”
“Really?”

Still, it sounded like Rir was quite bold herself. She probably acted that way since, in her mind, “making Shuu happy” was the highest priority.

“So, were you even once the one to initiate?”
“Nah.”
“…You’re joking.”
“I ain’t.”

He replied as if it was the most normal thing ever. Did he actually think that it was fine to leave things like this?

“Are you happy with that?”
“I-I think it’s awful. That’s another part I’m anxious ’bout.”

Ah, at least he is aware. Still.

“…You’re a wuss, dude.”
“Yep, I realized that only recently.”

I never thought he could be that much of a weakling. It had to be frustrating for Rir.

Hrm…

“So, on top of refusing her advances, you never make any yourself… If this was Mika, she’d glare at me in dissatisfaction.”
“I know… I’m seriously anxious ’bout that part.”

It made sense; his dissatisfaction with Rir was that she was so cute he had to fight his desires, causing him anxiety, which wasn’t that strange.

“…Dude, isn’t it more that you’re dissatisfied with yourself rather than her?”
“You really are my closest friend. You understand me so well.”

The dejection on his face was even clearer than before. This was what happened when a boy who’d (convinced himself that he’d) never been in love, got a girlfriend.

“What are you going to do, Shuu?”
“…Apologize to her, obviously. And be the one who initiates on this side… Though we can’t go to a love hotel, it’s against the law.”

Th-That’s it. I got through to him, but will it work?
…It has to!

“-I’ll ask her at home, the next time my parents are gone for the day.”

He seemed to have made up his mind… his face looked the same as last year, right before he left for the intra scholastic tournament. When he declared something this boldly, he appeared quite manly. The day for Rir’s dissatisfactions to disappear might be close.

“That’s good to hear. Do your best!”
“Right!”

It would be perfect if his courage to ask her would cure him of his worries of losing himself. Though it would also be fine, if it happened on the day he was thinking of.

TL notes:
Oh, look! It’s another of these “things you should talk about with your partner” chapters. Though I guess Shuu at least has Alim to talk about it, rather the examples where the latter just brooded about this kind of stuff.

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