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The sun is up. It seems like I fell asleep again. Last night, if I remember correctly, Fiiyanamia drugged me, which made me speak out about some stuff. While I do feel somewhat refreshed thanks to that, the fact that I’ll have to see Fiiyanamia again today is already making me feel embarrassed. Despite it being due to the drug, yesterday was such a shameful display.

Still, Fiiyanamia called us family. Then it should be alright? Maybe it is, maybe not? Waking up just a while ago, my mind is still somewhat fuzzy.

「Morning Ain.」
『Good morning Ciel.』

And as Ciel called out to me, I reflexively greeted in reply. I always reply when I hear her voice, although sometimes when I get too occupied with something, it just passes through my ears and I don’t reply. Rather, I think I always greet Ciel first in the morning. This time though, maybe because I fell asleep, Ciel was the one that greeted me first.

In any case, it’s nothing more than a casual exchange.

However, today’s Ciel seems extremely happy for some reason as she replies with delight, 「That’s right, fufu, good morning.」

Seeing her like so, the spirits approached her and flew around her.

『You seem to be quite happy.』
「I mean, Ain is here after all. Up until yesterday, there wouldn’t be any reply no matter how much greetings I give, you know?」
『Uhh, that’s-…』

Perhaps due to being at the Creator God’s place, I don’t really feel like a lot of time has passed but I’ve actually been out for three days. During those days, I couldn’t greet Ciel and, naturally, I couldn’t greet her back. Yesterday, Fiiyanamia said that Ciel nearly closed her heart after only one day. That might not have been an exaggeration.

It makes me feel extremely guilty and, at the same time, afraid of discussing with Ciel what will happen to us from here on out. After all, Ciel might have to make a difficult choice.

「But you know, it’s fine. After all, it seems like you’re feeling better now, Ain.」

Come to think of it, Fiiyanamia also said that Ciel asked her a favor. To be honest, I couldn’t really tell just how much pressure I was putting myself under, but considering the fact that it feels like a heavy weight was lifted off my chest after what happened yesterday, it might have actually been dangerous. And understanding that, I guess Ciel asked Fiiyanamia for help.

If it was Ciel in the past, it would’ve been unlikely for her to do so. I already know that Ciel wants to do something for me, so I suppose this was the perfect opportunity for that. However, I don’t recall complaining about anything to Ciel, and even if I were under the influence of drugs and forced to speak, I doubt I would feel as revitalized as I do now had it been Ciel who helped me.

I’m sure that if it was Ciel there that heard what I said yesterday, she would have been stumped with how to reply. At the very least, if I was at Fiiyanamia’s position, I don’t know if I can end things as smoothly as she did. Ciel likely realized that herself, which led her to request this.

This fact makes me feel somewhat lonely but also touched to see Ciel’s growth. At this point, I would never doubt the fact that Ciel really cherishes me.

After all, she just casually accepted me being formerly male and coming from a different world.

『Thank you.』

Hearing my words of gratitude which were unintentionally filled with various different emotions, Ciel showed a somewhat lonely expression.

「I’m sorry. No, thank you, Ain.」

Of the emotions filling her reply, how much do I understand? I have no idea. But since it would be rude to ask about it, I kept this question to myself.

◇

A short while after, we were called for breakfast, but it feels really awkward to see Fiiyanamia face to face. While I am in a sense of being hidden within Ciel, Fiiyanamia knows of my existence. Called by a maid, we were led to a place that looks like a dining room for nobles.

A table that could accommodate a dozen or so people and a wide open space. Eating in this room were only Ciel and Fiiyanamia, no one else. It seems like they’ve already used this place several times before as Ciel sat on one of the several chairs available without any hesitation.

「Uh-hm. You two really came.」
「Fii, morning.」
「Right, good morning Ciel.」

Ciel greeted Fiiyanamia with a smile. Yesterday just a simple exchange like this would rip into my heart, but not today. Instead, I’m quite happy that Ciel has found someone other than me who she can converse with and open her heart to. We can’t talk to spirits yet after all. However, I hope you’d forgive me for feeling somewhat lonely.

「Is Ainsel doing well?」
『Thanks to you.』
「Thanks to you, she said. Thank you for yesterday Fii.」
「No, no. Don’t mention it. Rather, it had some perks to it you see.」

Fiiyanamia made a small gap between her thumb and index finger to tease Ciel. Please stop it. Stop it with this topic already, please. I’m sure she won’t talk about the details though.

「What is it, what is it? So something happened between you and Ain?」
「My my, ufufu. It’s a secret.」
「That’s unfair, so unfair!」

Seeing how Ciel seems to be enjoying the exchange, it doesn’t seem like she actually wants to get it out of Fiiyanamia. The two of them probably understand that I don’t want Ciel to hear anything about what I said yesterday. That’s why this is just banter. While I’m fine with Ciel enjoying herself, hearing them talk about it is just… embarrassing.

『U-um, why don’t we eat breakfast first? Look, it seems awfully delicious.』

That’s why I shifted the topic to breakfast. I’m sure that Ciel should pay attention to it. After all, when all’s said and done, she does love eating.

As I expected, 「Alright.」 Ciel agreed but after this, she let out a chuckle.

「I might not know what happened between Fii and Ain yesterday, but you don’t know how Ain is right now. So it doesn’t bother me.」
「My my. Well then, it’s time to eat.」

After that unexpected exchange, breakfast began. There’s bread, soup, and salad. They’re simple dishes, but all of them appear to be prepared with high quality ingredients and are extremely delicious.

It’s been a long time since I had a meal like this, so I was completely captivated by the taste but as this happened 「By the way, by the way」 Fiiyanamia spoke to Ciel.

「Do you have any plans for the day? Since Ainsel is back now, would you like to go outside?」
「Ain, do you have something you want to do?」
『Umm, there’s something I have to discuss with you about, so could you spare some free time?』
「Ain seems to have something to talk with me about.」
「Knowing what the Supreme God discussed with Ainsel is important after all. I understand. Until you two finish discussing, I’ll try to avoid summoning you two as much as possible.」
「Thanks Fii.」

Should I be glad that things were decided this smoothly or should I have bought myself some more time? Even if I did choose the latter, it would have only decreased the time Ciel would think about it, so it’s just nonsense.

◇

With breakfast finished, we returned to our room. The maids were also informed about this, so there should be no one disturbing us. Sitting on the bed, Ciel is waiting for me to start the conversation.

I had impulsively spoken about the fact that I was a man, even though it was really something that should have been a lot harder to talk about. What I’m about to discuss this time is just as hard to say but how long I muse about it isn’t going to change anything. For now, I’ll look for a good opportunity while talking about things.

『Ciel, you know where I was during the past three days, right?』
「Fii said that Ain was probably in the divine realm.」
『That’s correct. I was summoned by the Creator God to the divine realm.』
「The divine realm, what kind of place was it?」
『It was a pretty place. I suppose I’d say that it’s similar to the garden here. But there were a lot of flowers that I’ve never seen before and the sunlight there was very gentle. There, I had a seat with the Creator God and we talked about things. She was a really beautiful person… Or I guess god?』

During these sorts of times, I get a bit stumped on expressions.

With the current flow of the conversation, I was thinking of talking about what the Creator God told me about when suddenly 「What did you say just now?」 Ciel asked me a question, so I paused the topic there.

『Which do you mean by that?』
「You said you had a seat with the Creator God, right Ain?」
『That’s right. I sat on a beautiful chair while we conversed.』

Seeing her weird interest in that part, I wondered if Ciel is the type to pay attention to furniture. While she may also be curious about other things, it appears that she is beginning with this topic. However, Ciel’s response was different from what I expected.

「You said sat, right? In other words, Ain has a body in the divine realm? Is that the case?」
『Umm, rather than having a body, I think that it was just my soul taking human shape.』
「Then that means that this shape would be how Ain would look like if you had a human body?」
『That would be the case.』

I expected Ciel to be interested about it, but I’m amazed that she noticed with just the fact that I sat down. I didn’t even notice it. Even though I was the one sitting down.

「So then what did you look like Ain? What did you!」
『I had an appearance similar to you, Ciel. Since I’m using your body, it seems like my soul was influenced by it. But the color palette I had was the same from when I was still alive. My hair and eyes were black, my skin was… light orange, I think?』

The skin color of Asian people, how do I actually describe it? If I just say flesh-colored, then that would refer to the typical skin color of the people in this world, but I don’t actually have any idea of what the typical skin color is. Or rather, I’ve seen quite a lot of different skin tones so far. Typical skin color probably also varies depending on race, so as a former Japanese that had flesh colored skin, I’m really stumped here.

「That’s so nice, so nice, I want to see it too!」
『I see.. What I want to talk about is somewhat related to that as well, so why don’t we go to the main topic.』

If I become a god, Ciel will probably have the opportunity to see my body. Outside of that however, I don’t think there will be other opportunities. That’s why I’ll have to tell her.

But before that, I’ll discuss my situation up until now. Ah, this part might be something that I should have explained to Fiiyanamia as well. There’s no point worrying about it now, so I suppose I’ll just tell Fiiyanamia when she asks me about it in a later time.

◇

For now, I explained to Ciel the details of how I got to her side and how I obtained divine power. This time I didn’t touch on anything about my past life. While I was talking, Ciel listened with a serious look on her face.

「So in other words, that man’s experiment partially succeeded?」
『That would be the case. However, making it a complete success should be impossible.』
「That’s true. Besides, that man doesn’t even seem to know just how well his experiment went too. Nonetheless, us being able to see spirits is probably all thanks to that man, right? It’s giving me really complicated feelings.」
『I feel the same way.』
「More importantly, Ain really is amazing! You used magic after all!」
『Although because of that, I won’t ever have the ability to use combat sorcery at all but… I’ll leave this to you, Ciel.』
「Yes! Of course, of course!」

That ends the preface. Now it’s time to go to the real main topic: What will happen to us from now on.

Hiya~! In today’s chapter, we finally have more bonding moments with Ciel~! However, Ain’s still not quite ready to enjoy the Central and their safety here in the mansion… What more will Ain have for us to see?

Before anything else, there’s a portion I honestly cut out because I had no idea how I could translate it without it being too explanatory. It’s one of those kinds of things that really really get lost in translation. I lament not being capable enough to keep it in without it reading too unnaturally, but as I usually do, I’ll explain that part here.

Right after Ain changed “-beautiful person….. or I guess god?” this part follows:

*In these sorts of times, I get a bit stumped on the use of expressions.
Like when describing a cat’s life, do I say 人生 (the usual word for “Life” being the combination of the kanji “Human” and “Live/Raw/Alive/Fresh”) or 猫生 (“Cat” + “Live/Raw/Alive/Fresh”) or something of that effect.
Although since the language is different, making words like 猫生 is pretty difficult. (How meta of you, Ain)*

And the most hilariously meta part of this is…… I feel the same way, Ain. I’d extremely stumped on how to express this due to language difference… Now, if you’re not interested in me excessively elaborating this part, you may skip the paragraph from here on……… Okay then. In this case, the word person uses the kanji “human”, which the creator god isn’t, but it’s not “human” in the sense of specifically **** sapiens or human race in fantasy novels, the closest would probably be “mortal” or “person/people”. Now, it wouldn’t be natural for regular people to say “She’s such a beautiful human/mortal” when describing other people, so the choice there is obvious. So yeah, it’s complicated. Also, a lot of Japanese puns operate like this, where the reading means one thing while the kanji forming the word is actually some kanjis that aren’t usually put together. You can see that in Kill la Kill’s “Stripped of the will to fight” endings after the enemies are defeated, it can be heard as “fighting will lost” while it’s actually spelled out as “fight(battle) fiber(thread) lost”. Honestly, Kill la Kill just has a lot of these, they like the puns and stuff. But yeah, it’s not really common in English unless as puns, dad jokes, or whacky stuff like superhero/villain names, so it’s hard to translate especially since English isn’t my mother tongue.

Now, back to the actual story. Ain once again fell asleep, but this time it’s actually her having a rest, which is a good thing. A really good thing. Immediately after, our adorable princess finally have the opportunity to enjoy each other’s presence, finally after a long while (especially since I only translate once a week and I’ve been late recently…). Cute. Still, it’s cute how Ain feels absolutely awkward with Fiiyanamia, while Fiiyanamia being no mere mortal, isn’t really bothered at all. Also, I haven’t really elaborated on this, but how Fiiyanamia acts really highlights her having a different morality from other people, or rather regular people. Which is pretty fitting for her since she’s not really mortal.

Anyhow, it was also pretty nice that we get to see more of Ciel opening up to other people, hopefully a continuing trend from here on out. Still, I think I already said this before, but it’s funny how Ciel and Fii share not only physical features (hair colour and general shortness) but also verbal tics. Fii tends to repeat herself, while Ciel only does so when excited or emotional but that might be because she generally doesn’t speak too much. More on Ciel, it was really cute how she was really excited about just knowing that Ain *has* a body, regardless of it being a spiritual body.

Now then, I hope you enjoyed this chapter. Please feel free to comment. Stay clean, stay safe, and have a nice day~!