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“What’s up?” I turned around to find Yamaba looking at me with a strange expression. “I’m listening, go on.”

Technically, he always had a strange expression on his face, so his strangeness now wasn’t actually that strange. In fact, it would be stranger if he was acting normal.

“Goddess,” he licked his lips as he said that. “What are your plans once the whole crisis in Southern Plains is over?”

“Plans?” I was startled for a second. I actually hadn’t considered my future plans. The sheer absurdity and scale of the crisis did not allow for such luxuries.

Seeing my momentary confusion, Yamabe continued smiling as brightly as ever, “I hope to have an everlasting romance.”

“Everlasting romance? With who?”

Suddenly, I had this really bad feeling.

“Us, of course.” Yamabe chuckled at that point. “I’m the main character, after all. Who else is worthy of the Goddess except for me? And if there is, tell me, I will beat him to death.”

My face practically seized up. I woodenly turned my head around and said, enunciating each word slowly, “I’m sorry, but I actually like girls more.”

“…” His eyes went wide. “But Goddess, isn’t it a waste for you to like girls? How about this, I will open a huge harem, and you will be the head of my harem. As long as you’re the head of the harem, you can do whatever you like to the girls inside!”

I silently stared at that pair of lips that uttered the most shameful idea of opening a harem. “There’s something I haven’t told you yet. I’m actually a guy. That likes girls.”

“Goddess… there’s no need to debase yourself just to reject me. Even though your chest is a little flat, there’s no need to be ashamed of them. I will love you forever either way!”

Yuck… I just can’t… and why won’t anyone believe me?

I continued my silent disgust while Yamaba prattled on. “Don’t worry, Goddess, I will not discriminate against those with flat chests. In my heart, flat is the best! Flat is justice!“

I’m quite sure the follow-up to that is, medium is premium, oppai is truth…

“I get what you’re saying, and I understand that you can’t accept the harsh reality of my gender, but I really am a guy, one hundred percent!”
Unfortunately, it seemed like Yamabe had no intention of believing me at all. He already had his hands cupped around his ears as he chanted, “I’m not listening, I’m not listening! I’m not listening…”

Important things have to be repeated thrice, huh… very good…

“Doesn’t matter whether or not you are listening, my gender is not going to change just because you don’t believe me.”

Even though reality was a cruel mistress, I couldn’t keep him in the dark any further.

Perhaps I could have continued lying to him for a good while longer, getting him to work hard on my behalf, but a day would come when the truth would come out.

More importantly, lying to a person like that did not sit well with me.

People often mistook my gender for a female’s, and I knew explaining myself would be pointless, so I did not correct the record… but that was just me giving up rather than lying…

The situation now was different.If this misunderstanding wasn’t corrected soon, there was a very real fear that things might get out of hand. Thus I decided to come clean. Better to deal with the pain early than to let it fester.

Only a heartless person would toy with the boy’s heart like that. No matter what, I would never become someone like that. Ever!

As if he suddenly realised something, he lowered his head and said in a deadpan voice, “I get it now… Rather than accept me, the Goddess would rather debase herself… The Goddess must truly hate me…”

“I don’t hate you, I’m just trying to tell you that it’s impossible between us.”

The misunderstanding between us was a lot deeper than I thought, requiring more patience on my part.

However, I had completely forgotten that Yamabe’s mental state was anything but normal right now. He had already been betrayed by his parents, calling this a sensitive period for him was being generous.

“Yes, I understand now, a normal girl would never date someone they hate. Since the Goddess hates me, then I have only one choice left… You forced me to do this… I am the main character, if I can’t even get what I want, what kind of main character am I?” Yamabe raised his head dramatically. His face was twisted beyond recognition by the overflowing desire leaking out. “There’s no time.”

“Yamabe?” At this point, no matter how dense I was, I could tell that the situation had gone awry.

As a last ditch attempt, I tried to placate him once more. “Yamabe, calm down and think about it for a second, are you really going to attack me? There’s still time to change your mind…”

“It’s too late.” He stared right into my eyes, lips still smiling strangely. “From the moment you sought out Chiyo Hanataba, it was already too late. I was planning to tell you in the future myself, but you’ve betrayed my trust…”

The moment he mentioned Chiyo’s name, my heart lurched. “You knew?”

“Of course. She must have secretly told you in the restroom . Else why would you have known so much about me.” Yamabe swept his eyes over Chiyo who was still seated atop one of the carts with her head down. “Goddess, you’re the one who let the cat out of the bag. I never told you that I killed someone before, yet you knew… Then there’s the fact that Chiyo went out of my sight for a while and came back bolder… After putting all that together, there can be no else other than her.”

Such cunning insight… All I did was let slip a little information and he managed to discern so much…

“I know that the Goddess has been guarding against me from the start.”

“I haven’t…”

“You have!” He forcefully interrupted me. His face still maintained a veneer of calm but his words were anything but. “Everyone knows what the situation in Southern Plains is like. There’s only two reasons that Bureau of yours would seek out people like me: to recruit me, and perhaps employ me in some exceptional cases, or perhaps to silence me.”

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